Mental Health

A lump….

beingmesober

It was Sunday morning and as I lay in bed watching my husband sleep, ya, weird maybe, my arm was resting on my left breast and I felt a lump. Instant terror. My mind went crazy thinking of the big “C”.  If I die, who will be here for my family, everything I have accomplished and the life I have come to live and love the past 8 years of sobriety may be over? What!?

I am 47, they say it is quite common for women my age to have cystic lumps because of hormonal change. Until it is confirmed your mind goes crazy. You wonder how can you go through the treatment, how could you leave the life you have so much come to love, you start thinking of things you haven’t done yet and start planning to do those things.

Why do we do that? Why do we wait in life to do things, why postpone or procrastinate on things that we haven’t yet done.

Don’t wait until you are faced with a life altering situation to make your life a full life.

Live, love and make everyday the best. You never know how long we will be here or healthy enough to really enjoy it.

 

This is, Being Me Sober

Published by beingmesober

I'm finally sober! My life up until I really got sober was in one word, chaotic! I didn't know what stability was. To top off my mess of a childhood, I went straight into a marriage with more abuse and alcoholism. But, what I have today is who I am, who I've become, I am with an amazing (new) husband, we have 4 kids and our fur-baby. It has not been an easy road but I can say it was worth every fight and tear it took to get me here. Sharing my journey with you and my past is not to display it all over the place but to help someone relate to what has happened and where my mind has been while I was drinking and where it is today. Its to give insight to those suffering that if you just keep fighting you can really have the best life you were meant to have. Let's do this!

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