They say, “The truth will set you free.” Yes, it does but, not all people get that.
By admitting the truth about yourself, or what people have done to you, it opens up a part of you and releases the truth that has been holding you back. The truth, no matter what it is. Even some mass murders can’t go to their grave without confessing their sins. Once you admit and be honest with yourself and others new feelings start to emerge. You feel relief, you feel light, that heavy lead coat you’ve been dragging around is gone.
It took me a long time to speak up and confront the person/people with the truth. To be honest about what they had made me feel or what I had been subjected to. To admit my wrongs and make them right. To be truthful.
When I would confront someone about their truth, I was told that I fabricated stories because they refused to be honest about the situations. They refuse to accept and come to peace with what they had done or said. Sometimes not realizing how much their words or actions hurt, even when the actions they do are not inflicted on you, but towards someone you love, it is as they are doing it to you.
The first thing I did when I began my sobriety journey was be truthful with those closest to me. I admitted to my children and husband that I regret deeply the damage I had done to them by my actions during my drinking days. I apologized for not being there for them as I should have, for having them see the chaos that I and their father (my ex) had subjected them too when we were together. I was truthful with them about how I felt and how I imagined, I made them feel. I know all too well what the alcohol infused words and actions can do to a family and to yourself. I was subjected to that kind of world too for many years.
Holding on to the truth or denying it will eat you up inside and make you a very angry person. It will not allow you to move forward in whatever journey you are on. Having admitted and been truthful with those I love and most importantly, myself, I am now free to live the life I have always dreamed of.
This is, Being Me Sober