Mental Health

What I’m most scared to do?

Daily writing prompt
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

This is a good question. One of my most scariest thing to do is putting myself out there. Putting myself in the lime light in front of millions of people scrolling through social media. opening myself up to opinions and negative feedback. Telling my deep secrets but also possibly helping so many others by doing what I’m terrified to do.

I’m an outgoing spontaneous person but not one that likes to be focused on or center of attention. It’s the first of anything new that makes us nervous.

What it would take for me to do it would be to just do it. Stop listening to the voices in my head and start listening to the people and supporters that keep telling me to share my story. Stop the fear of the unknown.

Part of why I am scared or nervous to start is that there are more people involved in my story than just me and I don’t want to hurt anyone by sharing.

The artwork in this post was created by me, KPZ Art. It’s a hobby I discovered during my sobriety journey. It’s amazing what you can achieve when you’re living your best life!

Mental Health

What I would do if and when I win the lottery.

What would you do if you won the lottery?

I think everyone has fantasized winning the big one! I know I have. What I would do.

First I’d help family, then I would open a beautiful sobriety home. One that offered everything and more. One that feels like a place you want to come to heal, a place that offers everything One needs to heal and get back intouch with themselves. A place where you feel welcome and not just another patient or case number. I would make it affordable for anyone.

I think I would build the home in the mountains with ocean views. Somewhere private yet close to amenities. Somewhere where, patients can sit by the water or go mountain climbing. I’d also like to have animals on site, such as dogs and horses to give people comfort that animals can give sometimes better than humans.

Ive dreamed of this for many years. Whether it becomes a reality for me depends on the numbers I choose or the quick Pic numbers drawn!

Good luck everyone, I hope your dreams come true!

Mental Health

What my name stands for

Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc.

My name, Kelly was given to me from my moms brother, my Uncle Doug. My mom told me the name she originally wanted for me and I’m happy my Uncle stepped in.

Here is the meaning of my name Kelly.

The name Kelly has Irish origins, stemming from the Gaelic surname Ó Ceallaigh, and means “descendant of Ceallach”. The personal name Ceallach itself has several interpretations, often linked to “bright-headed,” “war,” or “strife,” and sometimes “one who frequents churches,” making Kelly a unisex name symbolizing strength, brightness, and Irish heritage.

It also stands for warrior, fighter and strength.

Its ironic in a way because when I do great people on here I’ve always used the word, warrior, fellow warrior’s. Warrior’s over the power of alcohol and the fight within myself to get sober and the strength to stay sober!

My name is just a glimpse of who I truly am and what I, Kelly stand for.

Mental Health

Where can I reduce clutter?

Where can you reduce clutter in your life?

The first thing that came to mind was clearing my mind. Clearing my mind of clutter, intrusive thoughts and self sabotage.

I’ve been practicing my breath work and literally giving my head a shake when those thoughts would come.

Last year I had a lot of peace come into my life. My father passed. I know that sounds terrible but there’s a lot of hurt and betrayal that had happened when he was here. We did see each other and make amends just before he passed. Thank God.

So, Ive been able to get most of the clutter out of my mind and working on the rest. Its freeing to be at peace and declutter your mind.

Don’t stress about yesterday or tomorrow, today is all we have 💙

Pets

My favorite animal

What is your favorite animal?

Of course my favorite animal are dogs. My dog Gracie is a golden retriever and a joy to have.

Dogs have always brought me emotional well-being and support, especially during the beginning of my journey being alcohol free. Molly was also a retriever and she did an amazing job with me. She knew what I needed and she delivered with angel wings.

Gracie, is a cuddle bug and fun! She is such a bundle of happiness. When things go aray in my life she’s there to comfort too.

All animals are special in their own way and I am a lover of all, but dogs take the win for me.

Leisure

Most memorable road trip

Think back on your most memorable road trip.

My most memorable and favorite road trips have always been with my grandmother, my Aunt and cousin. We would use my dad’s van, which was so cool. It was custom made by my father and grandfather, a fitting name of Night Moves with loovers on all the windows, navy blue argyle patterned padded vinyl on the walls, a bunkie with doors that closed, a couch and mini fridge, even had a little counter and sink, amd of couse the nicest shag carpet!

All us girls would load up and hit the road to Atlantic City, or a smaller trip to our families resort trailer park or the long drives to Florida. It always makes me smile when I see those vans today that were the coolest in the 70s and 80s. But none of them can hold the memories of the road trips or the memories of that van. Night Moves was named after the song by Bob Segar, one of my fathers favorite singers and his favorite song.

The van, the name, the song, remind me of all the memorable moments that I cherish deeply.

Mental Health

Building my space

You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?

We have an open area in our basement and we’ve, my daughter and I, discussed doing a podcast on sobriety, Mother Daughter sober journey.

Here’s what it would look like.

A low profile sectional cozey couch, white with colorful accessories,, fluffy pillows, and blankets. A back wall with inspirational quotes, photos and legendary sober warriors. A circle coffee table in a natural wood finish, an area rug for warmth, dim lights for calm mood, candles and energy lighting. I want it to be comfortable and enticing to lounge and have the right energy around to let people feel calm and connected.

I want people and myself to look at the space and want to hang there all night with tea and a book, a podcast, or games. A space for connection and healing and coming together.

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I’m most happy when….

When are you most happy?

I’m most happy when I’m with my husband our pup and all our kids and grandkids! Thats what life is about. Family ties.

Making our own beautiful family memories. I love seeing them happy, having fun and just loving each other.

Our children are grown and a couple are miles away but when we do get the chance to be together we make the most of it.

Build a family of love, acceptance and happiness. Leave a legacy your proud of when your gone from this realm.

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One thing I hope people say about me.

Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.

I hope when I leave this earth people will say I was a good, kind person. That I enlightened people and made their day better and I was genuine.

It doesn’t take much to be kind to someone. A smile goes a very long way. A kind word or just being there to listen.

Mental Health

Eating Meat

What are your feelings about eating meat?

Meat to me is a source of good protein and health, but as I approached my 40’s I started to not like it as much. The taste changed and I felt sort of gross about it. I still like having meat every now and then, pork being my go to, but would rather have pizza and pasta for dinner or a good hearty salad.

Moo Moo.