I miss the beeping of my phone and seeing it’s you thinking of me
I miss the smile you smiled when I said something funny
I miss the talks we had driving in your rig on our way to NY
I miss the days in the Trans Am so free and fast
I miss your arm around me and looking at me so proud
I miss your jokes and your laughter
I miss your stories
I miss the music
I miss knowing you’re there
I miss being daddy’s little girl
I miss you so
-KBP
Is a little chaos actually good for us?
What a question! I’ve lived a life of chaos pretty much for 40 years until I got sober and could pull myself from the cause of the continued chaos. Was it good for me? No. Not constant chaos so you don’t know which way is up. Chaos makes our minds function very differently. Everything feels rushed, no time to realize what’s actually going on. You can’t focus, sleep, or live a functioning life in constant chaos.
My mind never rested, it was going constantly. My emotions were on high and I could never completely settle. I had night terrors since I was a child and was continously anxious. Expecting the drop.
Now I have very little chaos and some may say it’s a boring life keeping to myself and having a small group of friends. Family members or friends who bring a certain chaos to my life are at a distance. I absolutely love our quiet life. I am calm and can think clearly without all the other rukess circling around.
Some chaos I guess can stir up a bit of excitement and let us appreciate our quiet life that much more, but too much of anything is never good.
There will always be a bit of chaos no matter what we do to stop it. There will always be bumps ahead but it’s how we handle the chaos when we are faced with it. Calm cool and collected.
So when life is going smooth expect a little splash of chaos to show up and get a little crazy. Let it ruffle your hair and put us in high gear knowing that it will soon pass. When it’s over we sit and let out a deep breath and really appreciate where we are when times are quiet.
Hit 5,000 steps today and drop your achievement here — we’re cheering you on!
Sorry peeps, can’t partake today! I’ll be on a flight going to see our daughter and grandbabies in Saskatchewan!! Meeting our newest one today.
Will check in later and drop how many steps I did get today!
Happy walking 🚶♀️ ✨️
What’s the best way to deal with negative thoughts?
Those intrusive thoughts and self sabotage. We’ve covered this ground before. One little thing can trigger the whirlwind of negativity in your mind. Sometimes lasting only for a few minutes other times it can crumble us.
I use to drown my negative thoughts with alcohol. NOT a good idea! I would be miserable and walk around angry all day and take it out on people around me.
My husband is a great supporter and knows just by looking at me that I’m off. He immediately senses it and asks what’s wrong, if I’m having a bad day or hormones going haywire. I try to say, no, I’m fine or nothing because I hate the attention or pity. Then to realize when I do talk about it I feel a lot better. Took a long time to learn that. I harbored feelings which lead to drinking and being very unhappy inside.
Ive learned to sit with the feelings, analyze and just think. I’m a deep thinker and really try to understand why I feel the way I do at the moment. Sometimes I chat to myself and tell myself that I’m being ridiculous and to snap out of it! Get up and get shit done. Stop the pity party.
I’ve also tried breath work. Deep breath in hold for 6 seconds and let out a big breath and continue with saying release. Release all the negative thoughts with that big breath out. Believe me, it works!
One of the best ways I get rid of negative thoughts is to pray.
I ask you lord to be released of these negative thoughts and cover me in your light. Take what does not serve me and fill me with purity, good thoughts and love.
Thoughts come and go like a dark cloud. Let it pass over and know, this too shall pass.
Art on front page is done by me! Kpz Art 🎨
What do you love now, that you hated when you were younger?
WEEDING! I hated weeding when I was younger.
When I was 11 Is when my stepmom taught me how to weed the garden. It was the last thing on earth I wanted to be doing. I wanted to be swimming, or hanging out in my room or playing with friends, certainly not weeding my parents garden. Like, why couldn’t they just do it. Huffing and puffing along the way. My mom never gave in though. She made me finish the entire gardens. The gardens seemed to be so big and take so long to do.
Today, however I’m grateful for those days I hated weeding because it taught me how to take care of my own garden when the day came. I do think back to that still when I’m gardening and give a little thoughtful shout out to my parents for teaching me, and the patience to suffer through my pouting and carrying on during those times.
I can also say I’m a little anal when it comes to my garden. It has to have proper placement, colour and low maintenance perennials. Minimal weed growth. When I do have to weed and maintain the grounds, I find it relaxing. I can go into my own world and tell my plants how beautiful they are! Weird? Human touch stimulates plants and talking to them or having music close to them. They feel the vibration from our voices and the music, the energy we give when touching.
So, thanks mom for all those lessons that I thought would ruin my life. 🫶👊
When I sit back on my front porch or backyard deck I look at my gardens and smile because they are beautiful and I’m proud of my hard work and of course lessons learned, not just about weeding but about appreciating and taking care of what you have.
Happy Earthing!
What’s a time you followed your gut and it turned out to be exactly right?
I would have to say, my gut tells me when to list and where to buy real estate. I’ve somehow had an intuition for just the right time to list our properties and what price point for a fair and quick sell, as well as what area to purchase in. We’ve never over paid or under sold.
It is more than just my gut, it’s doing a lot of research, driving by communities to see what the area is like, looking into recent solds and checking out what’s listed and for what price and how long its been on the market. Those are all factors.
Overall though, it could be a great neighborhood, the perfect home and my gut will tell me if something is off about the home or the area. I’m able to see a lot of things people may skim over, and I try to stay tuned to my energy. When it comes to living in a home you don’t want bad juju!!
It’s difficult to know when to trust your intuition or “gut” but, 9 times out of 10 our gut is not wrong.
Listen to your body and and gut. Just remember to feed it well!
What’s a piece of media (book, movie, song) that changed how you see the world?
The song that that changed the way I see, not necessarily the world, but the world around me.
I Can See Clearly Now, by Johnny Nash. I know the song and knew it before it impacted my life when I got sober. It took awhile for me to see clearly.
When I was deep in recovery and this song played it was one of my sobriety songs. I could see clearly now, the rain has gone, I could see all obstacles in my way, no more dark clouds.
It hit every ounce of me and what I had tolerated, accepted blindly and the way I was numbing myself to the world that I could have. The people who I could see clearly, no blinders on anymore and no more tolerance from what was hurting me deeply emotionally. I didn’t want those dark clouds, the secrets and pretending to be someone I wasn’t.
Sobriety showed me another side of the world we live in. I don’t have to drink to forget what life or the world had done to me and the people I love. I didn’t have to live in fight or flight mode. I didn’t have to carry the secrets that I held for so many years to protect someone who wasn’t willing to change or accept accountability.
Music is my therapy. I feel it in my soul and sing to the heavens. My parents always loved music and played it all the time. I heard the song many many times but it hit differently when I changed and boy did that song resonate!
Another song is A Wonderful World. It is a wonderful world when you see clearly.
Some messages we get while here on earth are meant just for you.
What’s the best advice you’d give to someone younger than you?
The advice I would give to someone younger than me would probably sound a lot like what our parents or grandparents told us.
Don’t rush into marriage, kids, house, dogs etc. Save your money, be independent and so on. This is all good advise but what about living your authentic life?
I would tell them to be true to themselves, love yourself through and through to be able to give your heart to someone else fully and completely. Be who you want to be and don’t let anyone crush your dreams. Its okay to say no. Be mindful of your friends because not everyone is. Don’t trust so easy and ask lots of questions. Don’t be afraid to be silly and crazy every once and awhile, it’s good for our inner child. Listen to your intuition and your parents. We’ve been your age, we know! Always be respectful to everyone that deserves your respect but give yourself the same. Keep learning through life, keep reading and spend more time in nature than on your devices. Learn to communicate and express how you feel, think before you speak or react. Forgive yourself for the mistakes you’ve made and let go. If you need help, ask.
Lastly, i would tell a younger person that it will all be okay. Just make the right choices, live life to the fullest and take care of you first. Give 100% to yourself before you give 100% to someone else.
Keep smiling 😃
What’s your top tip to be successful in life?
My top tip. I don’t think of just 1 tip. It takes many factors to be successful. One that stands out is fear.
Fear will stop you in your tracks. Thinking no one will like what your offering, what will they say, what will they think of me. Those are all mind games. All the “what ifs”.
If you’re passionate about something and want to be successful, dive in. Just do it! The worse judge is yourself and the negative thoughts that come with trying to be successful.
Grab your passion, your knowledge, be consistent and determined, loose the fear and you will succeed.
Success doesn’t always have to be about a job. It applies to everything in life. Your relationships or your goals.
No matter what it is you want to succeed at never let fear stand in your way.
What’s a common misconception people have about happiness?
Its the big one, Money Will Make Me Happy! If I just had more. If I get that new boat, house, car….
We’ve all heard that. There are so many things we think will make us happy or, happier. Its never something you can buy, practice or fake.
Are you happy a little, or happy, or whole heartedly happy?
There’s only one way to be truly happy and that’s to love. Love yourself, love others and be grateful. Be grateful and love what you have,not what you don’t.
Happiness comes from within, your inner peace and happiness.
You can find happiness by doing things for others and not expecting anything in return. Paying forward. Loving and supporting one another. Smiling and saying hello to a passer by. Letting a car merge in-front of you when you can see their blinker….don’t speed up, don’t curse and yell at the person who clearly cannot hear you. You get it!
Myself, I’m a happy person. Thankfully. There are days, like today, you’d think I was miserable. But if you knew me you’d know why I am in a mood, but I get through and know tomorrow is a new day and it will be better!
Is that happiness or optimism 🤔?
I know money or status will not bring happiness. Those are temporary. I know happiness is a gift and not always granted so easily for some, but if you open your heart and look within, you’ll find some happy there.
